Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Ok well maybe not just one. I love quilting and this is the quilt I made for my bed along with the mound of pillows that take's several trips just to empty the bed at night. I also love decorating hence the top half of the wall that is painted to match the fabric on the table cloth as well as some of the pillow shams. This fabric comes from the "Flavia" collection entitled Dream.
I have done several other bedroom sets as well as just tons of quilts. I'll have to go through my pictures and see what all I can find to share with you.
My next quilt will be for Darlene, a very amazing lady. Let's see who can guess the pattern I'll be using.
Labels: One of my passions.....
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Photo 1: This is me at age 8ish Photo 2: This was me at 17 when I graduated from high school Photo3: I was just starting on my real journey of discovery and was feeling blocked but was ready to be free Photo 4: This is me heading off to freedom Photo 5: This was about a year or so ago and although I'm still on a journey of discovery I'm making progress
My story....ok where to begin. I was raised in a family of 7 children and I grew up to become a doormat, which I am trying to work my way out of. So in order to work my way out of that I have to understand how I became a doormat. For as far back as I can remember, which was before I started school, my father molested me and my sister in one fashion or another. We were not allowed to say no but instead were expected to do as we were told no matter that we did not want to do it. But in those long ago days, as a child, I assumed that that was how everyone lived, they ate, slept, did chores, played, and did whatever disgusting things their fathers told them to do. Whenever I wanted anything, money for a movie, money for clothes, money for candy, money for soda, money for whatever it always came at a huge cost to me. Then when I was in seventh grade I got to start spending the night with girlfriends, one in particular, her name was Angie. I started noticing over time that she did not have to do all the things I had to so I ask her one night as we lay awake talking in her room and she was shocked, appalled, disgusted but most of all angry. The very next morning before school she marched me over to my house and made me tell my mom what was going on. When I came home that day my dad was gone, never to return. But children learn what they see and so my brother took over where my father left off until I got brave enough to say "NO" no more. But by this time the damage was done, I was a yes person, doormat, who would starve before I ask anyone for money or help as I was not prepared to pay the price.
God must have been right there with me because at a very early age I started reading any self help book I could get my hands on and in all this God did not allow me to become bitter but instead lead me down a path that would eventually allow me to put closure to this part of my life.
When I was 37 my father was living in IL and he had a house fire which was not severe in itself but because my father had emphysema his lungs could not handle the smoke and he ended up in the hospital fighting for his life. Out of all of us children I was the only one to go to the hospital and I stayed there in the ICU waiting room for 2 weeks while he fought for his life. He died Dec. 11, 1990 to the song "From A Distance" by Bette Midler. In that two weeks he told me that he was sorry and I told him I would never forget what happened but that I forgave him and that he could let go and be at peace. That was my closure. Now I can look back at this and still feel the pain but I can also look at all the good things that he did with/for us kids. Things like teaching us to ride horses, ice skating, roller skating, water skiing and we spent most of our summers camping. So we did things as a normal family and I cannot lose sight of those things.
God continued to watch over me as I grew into a teenager. He bought my step dad into my life and he is a wonder*filled, amazing man. He's been an amazing grandfather to my children and a great-grandfather to my grandchildren. He's always been there for us no matter what our need. He taught us many things as we grew into young adults and he loved my mother always and still does to this day.
I grew up to be very creative and to have two lovely daughter and 6 beautiful grandchildren but most of all I still believe that God is right there beside me carrying me when I cannot walk alone and guiding me and strengthening me when I am able to walk on my own. But through all of this I am still a door mat afraid to say no for fear of......
I come from weeds that have attempted to strangle me. But still, I am here, I must strive towards the heavens....
For I am a bloom, a gift. A gift for us to hold here within our hearts so that we will not forget, as survivors, we are the most beautiful flowers of all. ~*~ Author unknown ~*~
I have worked hard to get where I am today and still I read any self-help book I can. But, all~in~all I am ok. I love sewing (quilting mostly), I enjoy scrapping, I love decorating houses, taking photos and just about anything creative. This creativity is a gift from God and I cherish this gift.
I am a survivor!!!
Labels: Shaking out the door mat......
Saturday, January 20, 2007
I want to post a thank you to a very inspiring co-worker, Leslie, for this wonder*filled gift of springtime. I happened to mention to her that I was ever so ready for spring and it's flowers and color as it was snowing and grey outside that day. The next day she appeared with a canning jar filled with gravel and these wonderfull bulbs burried inside along with a note to fill with water just to the top of the gravel. Within just a day or so the growth started showing and within the week there I found these blooms. They seemed just perfect up agains my magical wall in my room which I was inspired to paint to match a piece of fabric by "Flavia". Thank you dear friend!
Labels: Paperwhites in the winter.....
Monday, January 08, 2007
I am placing Mark in a cirlcle of healing light and prayer and placing his healing in the Lords hands that you will hold him and heal him with a mircle for this amazing family. Please light your own candle of healing for Mark and keep the prayers going until he is fully healed. Mark, you are loved.
Labels: Placing Mark in a circle of healing light and prayers....
Sunday, January 07, 2007
This is my amazingly beautiful granddaughter, Christianna Lorraine. I wish for her all the happiness and dreams in the world. She is 13 so her journey into womanhood is just beginning and I hope she has a safe, colorful, amazing journey filled with love and laughter. God watch over her always and keep her safe. When she was little she would always talk about her angel, Gabriella, and tell me how she would come and watch over her as she slept, she was only 2 or 3 when she first told me this and I can remember how amazed I was. Now she see's her on a rare occurance but I know she is with her always. How blessed I am to have such an amazing family.
Labels: My beautifl Christianna.....my granddaughter
Saturday, January 06, 2007
I am fixing to start a new quilt so I'm in the planning stage, the creative stage so to speak. I'll take these beautiful colored pencils and graph out the quilt before I actually start cutting the fabric. I am what you might call a perfectionist when it comes to my passion, QUILTING, so I have to draw it all out and decide which pattern looks best and which fabrics will work and which ones will be left for another quilting journey.
I am also a procrastinator.....lol.....so the planning is a way of putting of cutting into the beautiful fabrics and screwing them up. I never actually screw them up but I do always worry that I will I have to remind myself that to live artfully I must follow the rules. Rule number 1: There are no rules! So I am off to quilt world to create something fun and wonder*filled.
Labels: Color my world with quilts.......
Friday, January 05, 2007
I am lighting this candle in for Mark and it will keep burning until Mark is home and recovered.
Father I ask that you lay your healing hands upon Mark and absorb his infections and his high fever. I ask that you heal Mark's body from the inside out and that you hold him in your gentle, healing love until his momma is able to hold him. I ask that you place a miracle upon Mark this day and bring him back to his loving earthly family.
I also ask that you lay your healing hands upon his mother, Darlene, that you absorb her Lupus and allow her to stay strong for her son through all of this journey.
In Jesus name.....Amen
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
I was ask this question in a comment and thought I'd answer that for you. I have had this blog for several years and it was a private garden, "My secret garden", but I decided I'd like to share my world with all of you so I hope that you enjoy your visit and thanks for visiting me. I will add another post here to share my family with you and to share my friends as well. I'd like to take a moment to ask you to say a prayer for a very special young man who was in a very serious accident and is in need of all the prayers we can send up for him. His name is Mark,,,,we are rooting for you Mark and lifting you up in prayer for a healing miracle.
"if only I could sit down to all my grown-up art tools and create with the heart and spirit of a child once more". I think I'd color my dreams all over the walls and not worry a bit about what others might think or say. I'd color for myself, for my inner child.
Monday, January 01, 2007
Happy New Year!!!!!
Here's wishing you all the creative magic your imagination can dream of.....
Turn bedroom into Magic Place :)